it's so incredibly hot outside; i went out on the porch earlier to let the dogs out to go potty and it was like walking into an oven. i cannot deal with that type of thick air, it's crazy!
i took a couple tests today. made a 96 and an 80. hmm, which one didn't i study for? LOL the answer: BOTH!! one was kind of common sense paired with knowledge i already had stored away. the other was technical stuff that wanted answers based on the textbook verbatim. 80 isnt a bad grade but it did bring my test average down from 97 to 95. not too bad. i'll just be glad when this quarter is over. i need something stimulating that will keep my interest, and these 2 classes are certainly not doing it!
i didnt blog yesterday; i came home and pretty much crashed. my brain was so tired that i probably wouldnt have made sense even if i had attempted to write something.
today i'm just contemplating the effectiveness of this blog for myself. sometimes i dont want to tell everything to people i know. not that i want to keep secrets from anyone, especially the people with whom i am closest, but everyone has personal things inside that we want to stay personal. for the most part i'm an open book to anyone who cares to read, but not everything. for instance, there are some things i'll tell my husband that i wont tell my bestest, and vice versa. there are some things i'll tell my mom, but not my kids. or things i share with my children that i dont necessarily want to tell anyone else. and there's some things i would tell strangers that i wouldnt tell anyone else, as long as the strangers dont know me lol. i would tell things anonymously, hopes and fears and secrets, but i wouldnt say them out loud to anyone i know. maybe because i dont want to be embarrassed or see reproach or disgust in their eyes or expressions. and sometimes because i guess i have trust issues deeply ingrained in my psyche. too many times i've shared things with people just to have them thrown back at me later in an argument. so i've learned to keep things back. also, i might want to vent or complain about someone i know but i'm worried if someone reads it who knows that person, they'll go back and tell them i said it. or maybe that person might read it and i dont want them to know how i feel at this particular time. ugh! it's such a dilemma.
you know, i really hate this damn hughesnet satellite internet. it's really only good for browsing or chatting. you cant really watch videos or play many games on here, which is stupid. they have a bandwidth and just about anything will run it over. i wish windstream or the cable company would get some high speed internet out this way, fast! nearly everyone on our road who has internet access has hughesnet so i know that windstream or the cable company would get their money's worth by putting it out here. there are probably 40+ people out here in this area.
anyway, i have a headache. it didn't help that a & i argued earlier, it's always over stupid stuff. i swear i dont think i was that argumentative when i was 16 but i probably was.
so now i'm just sitting here in my bedroom chilling with my gypsy-doo. she's been sick for the past week and just now seems to be getting over it. i think she's preggo (dammit!). she's lost weight and it's visible. her spirits seem to be back up though so i'm pretty sure she's feeling better.
monday is mama's birthday. she'll be 67. we get on each other's nerves on a regular basis but i'm glad she's still around and i wouldn't trade her for anything. i know other people might not like her much but that's okay. she probably doesn't like them much either. LOL
today i cleaned up in the bedroom, got up the dirty laundry, swept and mopped the floor (dont know why i had to specify the floor, there's not too many other surfaces i would be sweeping and mopping but anyway....), cleaned up after gypsy-doo, and did some schoolwork. i really need to put away clean laundry but i just cant motivate myself enough to do that too. maybe tomorrow. the laundry isnt going anywhere. lol (dane cook flashback! this is where the animal farm used to be! it went somewhere!)
now i guess i'm gonna sign offa here for now. see if i cant track down something to drink. amberly just came back from the store with sodie-pop so i'm gonna go get caffeinated! yay!
much love to u all.
~t
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